Facing the Devil

Have you ever had a day when you KNOW you did everything right, but yet you feel persecuted, attacked, stepped on, driven to your limitations? That's the kind of day I had yesterday. And, try as I could, I could not get rid of that sense of dread that overwhelmed me. It's the feeling that you have when you know you are going to have to go through more tribulation in your life as you try to gain a foot-hold again to stand on your own.

Guess I should have seen it all coming. I mean, things have been so good for so long, and now the devil is attacking with a vengence and I am about to fall. The thing is, even though I may fall, I won't be falling down this time. I will be falling into the arms of my Jesus. He's going to be all I have. If I fall, I will lose everything but Him. My dogs, my car, my home -- everything I have worked so hard to maintain.

I'm going to start looking for that open door right now. I am going to need it. Soon. My life is about to change. Again. But, whereever I end up, I know without a doubt it will be where Jesus puts me.

I am praising my God through this valley of darkness that has overwhelmed me. As it envelops me, I am looking at that candle that is sitting on top of that hill that I am climbing. I am praying that The Father reaches down and grabs hold of my hand and, on my knees, I am standing tall as I give it all to Him.

That sounds like a song in the making...

He's the only one who can handle this. I have done figured out that I don't know how.

Pray for me.

I praise Jesus, because I KNOW He has felt this way before. He understands what I am going through. HE understands why. And, HE knows it isn't any fault of my own.

I thought when I got rid of my ex, the abuse would never happen again...but today I feel so mentally abused. It is as though I am staring Satan right in the face -- again. But, I am not giving in. I am not giving up. I refuse to give Satan the satisfaction of winning a piece of my soul. He might take my bank account. He might take my job, my small victories, and my companionship, the pillow I lay my head on. But He is not going to take my soul or my heart for Jesus.

God, today, I depend on you with all I have. I am yours. It is up to you to make this a testimony that glorifies You. I need You today. I need you right now. Be my strength, my patience, my endurance, my hope. In Jesus' Holy Name I pray, Amen.